I am mother to an 8 month old, and due for major surgery in less than a month. I have a history of anxiety and depression, and I am not coping at the moment. My moods are having massive highs, where I feel on top of the world, then massive lows, where I feel like I need to run away or hurt myself. It feels like I am a massive source of stress for my family, and the logical thing to do is remove the stressor. I feel as if my family would be better off without me. Whenever there is a large event coming up (birth, surgery, etc) I fall into such a deep depression that I always end up in the same thought pattern.
I'm in counselling, and my family is extremely supportive, I guess I just want to know if anyone has been through this feeling and come out the other side? I feel like I'm stuck on this emotional rollercoaster, and it's never going to stop.